I had good news this week. My CA-125 is “stable”. After months of uncertainty, we can say with a certain degree of confidence that my cancer–at least for now–is still in remission.
Though I am incredibly grateful for this good news, I am also humbled by it. Sometimes it seems that cancer is all around me. I am continually aware of so many people–godly people–who are battling this horrible disease, and who receive very little good news over the course of their battles.
The last year has made me so incredibly grateful for every single day of life that the Lord blesses me with. Though I pray for physical healing, I do not expect it.
How can I when so many around me do not receive the physical healing that they pray for? Am I more deserving of life than they are? Am I more spiritual…more godly?
We simply cannot know the mind of our God. His ways are above our ways. His thoughts beyond our thoughts (Is.55:8-9). But His promises are trustworthy. I may not know what tomorrow holds, or the day after that. But my future is certain. I know that when my life on earth is over, I will be healed. His Word promises that “…with His wounds we ARE healed.” I no longer bear the penalty of my sin. I will spend eternity with my Savior. There is no greater healing.
My healing has already been accomplished. Praise God!
I am thankful for Monday’s good news. And I will continue to pray that my cancer will not return. But I will also pray for His will. And for the grace to accept whatever comes my way!
No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow’r of Christ in me;
From life’s first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow’r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow’r of Christ I’ll stand.
–From “In Christ Alone” (Words and Music by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend)