I’m a traditionalist.
I have always loved the "idea" of unschooling. I have always loved the "idea" of unit studies. But that’s not me.
For 17 years, a battle has raged within this tortured mind of mine. For 17 years, my "inner classroom teacher" has kept my "inner free spirit" firmly in check. I need to be me.
I’m convinced I was born a teacher. My dolls and stuffed animals could read by the time they were two. I was trained as a teacher. I practiced as a teacher. And you know what…I love being a teacher. I love school desks, chalkboards and worksheets. I love following a lesson plan and I love giving grades. I am a homeschool veteran. I have been homeschooling for 17 years. I have graduated 2 "success stories". I’m a "good" teacher and a "good" homeschooler. Doggone it….I know what I’m doing!!
So why do I sometimes feel insecure? Why do I second guess myself and my decisions? Why have I struggled on and off with my inner battle? I think it’s because I know that there are people out there that don’t approve of my approach. I think it’s knowing that someone else thinks their way is better.
But when I stop and think about it, don’t I do the same thing? Haven’t I done it my way for 17 years because I know it’s the best way? Do I judge others for their homeschooling choices? Do I make others feel insecure? Or do I just accept?
I am who I am.
You are who you are.
And that SHOULD be okay.